hello! so it've been a long time since i last blog here. kinda lost the username and pw.
anyway, believe that the spiritual warfare just begun. many members are like falling sick, or some even family issues. just sense that somehow the devil knows that N20 will rise up to another level, especially when the connect grps just started, so somehow he is like doing things to stop us. but believe all of us won't just give in to it right? lets all jiayou together! maybe we can all start sharing abt our testimony, anything and everything here! think it's gonna be kinda cool and we can know each other better too. so i shall start the ball rolling.
well, so previously, think some of u know abt it, my family's kinda messed up. and everything's kinda bad. each day i'll just get so drain out by all the issues around me. i hate somebody and eventually learn how to forgive and truly love somebody (not bgr). i dont know what i'm thinking, but just heard a voice which says "no matter what, just keep believing and forgiving." i know it is God's voice, dont ask me how i know? i just know. each day, i'll just keep praying inside my heart, every hour, every minute, "God, pls,pls help my family get moving on. pls dont let us hurt each other, pls heal that hurt, that injury of mine and my family members. pls change my dad, change his temper, change his attitude, pls make him a more faithful father and husband. pls let my family be more loving." each day, i'll just keep praying. seriously, each time when i pray, i do feel like crying. the process is really painful. to learn to fully forgive somebody, it takes courage too. inorder to forgive, you'll have to face yr hurt too. many times, i just feel like giving up, and i'll go "God, it's too hard, it's too painful to forgive. i'm tired", but somehow, those who know me well, i'll fight to the end. haha.
so yup, one day God just convince me, He said "remember how Jesus forgives his disciple who denied Him 3 times? disciple is somebody close to Him too." from than on, i learn to let go and forgive. but i still kept praying for my family, and i can see changes occuring now. my dad will be home earlier now. my mum and dad's more loving than before. relationships within my family improved. family's more loving now. we even went out to shop together for new year flowers,etc. happy family, i can say.
so, if you're facing certain issues in yr family,relationship,friendship,etc., dont give up, keep praying. you will see the difference. there will be times when yr morale's low. when you feel drain out. but dont run away, run to Him instead. this is not just for N20, but also those who are reading this. jiayou! =)
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